Not Another Hint

I can take hints.

I've gotten many of those in the past.

It's nothing new. 

Actually, I notice the turn-out has always been the same...

Take a hint.

HAHA!

Such has been my lot. 

Gentle, innocent, honest hints in their reality,

however, they scream inside my head though "Not enough! Unlovable!"

It's quite deafening.

Made-up lies though they are, it's taken its toll. 

Let me take a deep breath. 

HAAAAAAH... 

Okay.

I can take another hint. 

Again pull away respectfully.

I've known no other way.

They deserved it.

In the end they're happy.

I'm happy for them.

But for my own happiness...

I just wish after all the hints..

The real answer come very soon.

With You Is Happiness

I get all giddy and excited once again,

in a moment another encounter.

Noticed you standing close,

I wait, in pretense of  being oblivious.

It was but a second, that look, that greeting with the smile,

yet the melting feeling remains with every recall.

The laughter, the conversations, if only would last a bit longer,

and to be beside you, please, make it last forever. 

With you is happiness,

total bliss and surrender.

Dazed, enchanted,
I lose all sense of time.

Until the inevitable, 
only for now I pray.

The night ends, we part ways,

My heart still pounding.


Sigh.... 

It breaks, cries...
'til the next time.